Saturday, January 18, 2014

“Lovers don't finally meet somewhere. They're in each other all along.”

It was a night fit for love, it was a night meant to be with the one you love, when I looked around myself I found that somebody was with the one they wanted to be and and here I was once again alone gazing in the dark. It was a night of eternal separation, it was a night of fierce pain, it was a tumultuous voyage that I had decided to embark upon.. alone. While at a distance I heard lovers whispering the sweetest of the sweet nothings to each other and savoring the pure joy of togetherness, here I was all alone, trying to picture the joy of achieving the impossible. Like the dog on a full moon night, frowning at the shadow of the moon in the river, trying to catch hold of the moon, never realizing that it's an illusion..

When 'Rumi' stroked a different chord..

These days I am savoring the work of Rumi, the very famous Persian philosopher and poet. His woks are tremendously fascinating, bound to strike your inner chords and ponder onto the Higher truths of this life and beyond. His writings are simple yet so complicated, he uses such simple words and such ordinary words yet presents such beautiful and meaningful lines that one cannot stop himself from sparing a thought.

some of Rumi's lines that are now on my list of my favorite lines-

** “Study me as much as you like, you will not know me, for I differ in a hundred ways from what you see me to be. Put yourself behind my eyes and see me as I see myself, for I have chosen to dwell in a place you cannot see.” 

** “Anyone who knows me, should learn to know me again;
For I am like the Moon,
you will see me with new face everyday.”

** “Run from what's comfortable. Forget safety. Live where you fear to live. Destroy your reputation. Be notorious. I have tried prudent planning long enough. From now on I'll be mad.” 

** “I am yours.
Don't give myself back to me.” 

** “I see my beauty in you.” 

** "Whoever's calm and sensible is insane!” 

** “My soul is from elsewhere, I'm sure of that, and I intend to end up there.” 

Thursday, January 9, 2014

18 days and The battle is still On!

It is actually funny but today while sparing a thought about the battle that I am fighting I found out that I was doing something just like how they did it in old days while fighting for freedom in Quit India Movement, I know I know I am Exaggerating things but believe there are similarities!!! It is like being born again, a new me, I never thought I would be able to carry it on for so long! Kudos for me!! I am happy, enjoying every minute of the solitude, It's like meditation, the results shall be there but it's a long long process and it needs Patience, Alot of it!
I know this will only make me stronger, so Hell ya, FIGHT ON SOLDIER!!

'The Battle..'

Everybody needs not be Mahatma Gandhi in order to start a Movement, to start a Revolution. Your life is all you need.

I can't believe there's absolutely anybody on this earth who hasn't faced a situation that urges him and sometimes even instigates him to Rebel. Being a Rebel doesn't make you any less disciplined (as popularly believed) but to me being a Rebel means that you take a stand till the end and fight for your beliefs, in a way it makes you more disciplined than ever. My self-realization of the truth that I'm a rebellious soul was in my early childhood days, the day I decided to fight against my fear of being bullied in school, the day when I refused to give in to the Temptations in my High-school days, the day when I decided to break 'family-trend' and do what I wanted in my College days, the day when I learned that it is perfectly normal to be boring but right than being Attractive and gravely wrong (that one was again in college!), it was not a single day.

It's so difficult to be what You want to be when everybody around you is trying to make you something that They want to see. How long can you suppress your desires, how long can you not fight back and take hold of your life and not be lead by others. I know the choices that I have made might not be the best ones, I know that I am bound to make mistakes but I also know that these mistakes shall only help me to understand better.

Friday, January 3, 2014

Insatiable.. ..

That urge to break free, that sudden yet very powerful urge to lose control, its like living on the sea-shore one moment you think the waves are all gone and in a moment you find yourself drenched up head to toe. It's similar to the feeling of taking hold of a wild animal, trying to put it inside a cage. I don't know will I ever get over with these 'urges' to am I destined to live with them.
It might sound crazy (I know IT IS crazy and bizarre!) but I keep on counting the days, as if I am waiting for 'something' to happen, and what that 'something' is .. I am yet to know.
It's been more than a week since I am on 'self-imposed exile', No Facebook, no talking, no socializing neither through phone nor in person. I am trying to keep it to bare minimum. An all this for? ...? I don't know.. ..


I am Not me anymore.. I am what I thought I was Not Am I a reflection of what He wanted to see.. Am I what She thought I would be.. Am I...