Tuesday, December 30, 2014

"Dil e nadaan tujhe hua kya hai, akhir iss dard ki dawa kya hai"

Dil e daaghdar kuch bujha sa hai kal se, ek ajab si maayoosi chhaayi hai fizaao me kal se..
Hazaar bahano ke baad bhi, hazaaro baar manane ke baad bhi dil kuch dukha-dukha sa hai kal se..
Usne maanga bhi to kya umr bhar ka saath, usne kaha bhi to kya 'na jaana aaj ke baad', mai kaise waada e wafa kar lu, mai kaise usse razaa pe haami bhar du... sheeshe ke ye nasamajh khwaab uske, kaise patthar ki iss duniya me sach kar du unhe..
Na neend aaye na maut kaafir iss hijr ki raat me..

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Saturday, December 20, 2014

What could be worse...

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need,
What could be worse..

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Tuesday, December 16, 2014

The answer..

I had always been a very curious kid, momma says my questions never stopped pouring and the more she answered the more questions I had! It was daddy who would never get tired of answering the questions, no matter how silly the question was! I remember it was a hot summer afternoon when I asked my dad how many Gods we have, in an instance he answered 'Just One God', little unconvinced by his response I told him that it can't be true. He smiled and asked me how many 'Gods do you think exist?', 'Atleast 4 or 5', I responded, he smiled and asked me what made me say so. 'There is one that lives in the mosque, then one lives in temple, one in church, one in gurudwara and one that lives in the sky' I said confidently. Daddy's smile faded and he made me sit next to him, I knew something serious was coming up, what he said next is what I believe in till this day. He told me, "You call me Daddy, while your sister calls me Dad, suppose if your brother starts calling me Papa do you think I will be divided into 3 different personalities? No! I shall always be One, it doesn't matter what you call me, I am and I shall always be One single person and so is your God.. One"

Saturday, November 8, 2014

Everybody said it wouldn't be easy.. but nobody told me it would be this hard..

I'm just hoping (and praying) that this too woild pass like just another phase.. believe me it's difficult to continue all on my own, difficult to continue to walk even when I see no light at the end if the tunnel.
"They say in every realtionship there's a person who loves more than the other.. God.. I wish it's not me this time"

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Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Are you lonesome tonight.

And suddenly I started feeling a thousand year old.. suddenly I could feel a lump in my throat and strange heaviness in my heart..

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Na jaane kisne..

Jin taaro ki chhaaon me tum soye the, unhi taaro ko aksar maine bhi to raato ko gina tha..
Jin pedo ke neeche tum baitha karte the, unke saaye me jhoola maine bhi to jhoola tha..
Jis chaand ko dekh ke tumne paani piya, usi chand ko dekh ke maine bhi to eid manayi thi..
Jin kahaniyo ko tum sunte the bachpan me kuch waisi hi to meri bhi kahaniya hua karti thi..
Na jane phir kisne ye batwara ek din kar diya, humare iss khuda ko mera aur tumhara alag-alag keh diya..
Khoon ka rang to aaj bhi laal hai, mera bhi tumhara bhi..
Dhoop to aaj bhi aangan me aati hai, mere bhi tumhare bhi..
Ye panchhi meri chhat pe aane se ab bhi nai katrate zara..
Ye hawa aaj bhi tumhare ghar jati hai maanti hai ye dharm-karm kaha .
Na jane phir kisne ye batwara ek din kar diya, humare iss khuda ko Mera aur Tumhara alag-alag keh diya..
Tumne bhi to mannate maangi hai mazaro pe ja kar, maine bhi to diye jalaye hai duaaon ke mandiro me aksar..
Na jane phir kisne ye batwara ek din kar diya, humare iss khuda ko mera aur tumhara alag-alag keh diya..

"Suratein wohi, jazbaat wohi, badle hai to sirf insaan aur halaat.."

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Sunday, August 31, 2014

Some Old Movies to watch before you die!!

The Apartment (1960) Billy Wilder

Winner of five Oscars, three BAFTAs and three Golden Globes, Billy Wilder's satire-cum-romance, starring Jack Lemmon and Shirley MacLaine, is a true classic. Nominally a comedy, The Apartment runs the gamut of drama, melodrama, romance and potential tragedy in one great, sophisticated social critique.
"When you're in love with a married man, you shouldn't wear mascara"

2Citizen Kane (1941) Orson Welles

The world's most acclaimed film. With this inventive account of the life of a media tycoon, the young Orson Welles threw down a challenge to Hollywood from which neither fully recovered. With its spirit of visual and narrative innovation, and Welles's precocious, towering central performance, Citizen Kane almost lives up to its own reputation as the best film of all time.
"You know, Mr. Bernstein, if I hadn't been very rich, I might have been a really great man'

3North By Northwest (1959) Alfred Hitchcock

Alfred Hitchcock presents a 3000-mile chase across America starring Cary Grant in an increasingly-dishevelled suit. Some have argued that North By Northwest isn't one of his Hitch's truly great films but, in the Graham Greene categories of 'entertainment vs serious work', it's an archetypal example of the former, as Hitch blends the set-pieces with dark humour and some digs at self-serving politicians.
"he moment I meet an attractive woman, I have to start pretending I have no desire to make love to her.'

4Chinatown (1974) Roman Polanski

Roman Polanski's masterly film noir stars Jack Nicholson as a private detective who becomes embroiled in a dark and dangerous scandal, a Faye Dunaway as a fragile femme fatale. Nicholson is superb as a basically decent man who tries to find the truth, but can't bear the revelations he uncovers - right up to the film's horrifically unhappy ending.
"You're dumber than you think I think you are."

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50 Films To See Before You Die

Film4's critics have thrashed it out to come up with our own list of cinema's essential "must see" films - and they might not always be the ones you'd expect...
  • The Apartment

    When you're in love with a married man, you shouldn't wear mascara

    1The Apartment (1960) Billy Wilder

    Winner of five Oscars, three BAFTAs and three Golden Globes, Billy Wilder's satire-cum-romance, starring Jack Lemmon and Shirley MacLaine, is a true classic. Nominally a comedy, The Apartment runs the gamut of drama, melodrama, romance and potential tragedy in one great, sophisticated social critique.
  • Citizen Kane

    You know, Mr. Bernstein, if I hadn't been very rich, I might have been a really great man

    2Citizen Kane (1941) Orson Welles

    The world's most acclaimed film. With this inventive account of the life of a media tycoon, the young Orson Welles threw down a challenge to Hollywood from which neither fully recovered. With its spirit of visual and narrative innovation, and Welles's precocious, towering central performance, Citizen Kane almost lives up to its own reputation as the best film of all time.
  • North By Northwest

    The moment I meet an attractive woman, I have to start pretending I have no desire to make love to her

    3North By Northwest (1959) Alfred Hitchcock

    Alfred Hitchcock presents a 3000-mile chase across America starring Cary Grant in an increasingly-dishevelled suit. Some have argued that North By Northwest isn't one of his Hitch's truly great films but, in the Graham Greene categories of 'entertainment vs serious work', it's an archetypal example of the former, as Hitch blends the set-pieces with dark humour and some digs at self-serving politicians.
  • Chinatown

    You're dumber than you think I think you are

    4Chinatown (1974) Roman Polanski

    Roman Polanski's masterly film noir stars Jack Nicholson as a private detective who becomes embroiled in a dark and dangerous scandal, a Faye Dunaway as a fragile femme fatale. Nicholson is superb as a basically decent man who tries to find the truth, but can't bear the revelations he uncovers - right up to the film's horrifically unhappy ending.
  • All About Eve

    I'm nobody's fool, least of all yours

    5All About Eve (1950) Joseph L. Mankiewicz

    Bette Davis excels as an aging diva in the six times Oscar Winner. The piece fizzes with energy and the bitchy lines flow, largely from Davis' wickedly crooked mouth. The entire cast is on top form (Marilyn Monroe makes an early, fleeting cameo appearance), although among the actors only Sanders won an Oscar for his superb turn as the louche theatre critic, Addison De Witt. One of Hollywood's finest backstage dramas.
  • Casablanca

    Of all the gin joints, in all the towns, in all the world, she walks into mine

    6Casablanca (1942) Michael Curtiz

    Humphrey Bogart and Ingrid Bergman make the silver's screen's best tragically torn apart couple as Rick and Ilsa, separated by fate and the invading German army. With its romantic story, unforgettable songs, top supporting cast, fantastic script, climactic sequence at the airport and perfect final line, Casablanca has rightly become one of the most popular films of all time.
  • The Wizard Of Oz

    I'll get you, my pretty, and your little dog, too!

    7The Wizard Of Oz (1939) Victor Fleming, George Cukor, Mervyn LeRoy, Norman Taurog and King Vidor

    Dorothy certainly isn't in Kansas anymore, Toto, as she sings and dances her way across one of the most magical fairylands ever committed to celluloid. An exuberant landmark of children's entertainment and Technicolor filmmaking, The Wizard Of Oz is inventive, fantastical, colourful - and a surprisingly dark and complex tale about economics and the miseries of childhood.
  • Film4 2001: A Space Odyssey

    I am putting myself to the fullest possible use, which is all I think that any conscious entity can ever hope to do

    82001: A Space Odyssey (1968) Stanley Kubrick

    Kubrick, cinema's chilliest genius, abandons conventional narrative and presents a succession of beautifully-composed sketches on the theme of evolution, death and rebirth linked by the mystical presence of a large black monolith. We know what the year 2001 looks like now, and it doesn't look much like Kubrick's vision. But 2001: A Space Odyssey itself still looks immaculate. Spectacular, trailblazing and philosophical, it's an undisputed masterpiece.
  • Black Narcissus

    We all need discipline

    9Black Narcissus (1947) Michael Powell and Emeric Pressburger

    Black Narcissus is a film to rival Powell and Pressburger's very best work. And since said best work includes A Matter Of Life And Death and The Life And Death Of Colonel Blimp and The Red Shoes, this is very high praise indeed. Deborah Kerr stars as a nun posted to a Himalayan convent where her vows are tested by the salacious attentions of local royal agent David Farrar and the dangerously unhinged Sister Ruth (Kathleen Byron).
  • Film4 Apocalypse Now

    I love the smell of napalm in the morning

    10Apocalypse Now (1979) Francis Ford Coppola

    Martin Sheen journeys through Vietnam and Cambodia to terminate flipped-out renegade US colonel Marlon Brando. But his mission becomes a screaming trip into madness, stunningly realised by Coppola's hallucinogenic direction and a cast dragged from Hollywood's Narcotics Anonymous

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

To the First Man in your Life.. To Daddy from his Forever Little Girl..

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven
And she's daddy's little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life
Oh but most of all


Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hairFor butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Walk beside the pony daddy it's my first ride
I know the cake looks funny daddy but I sure tried

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every mornin'
And butterfly kisses at night

Sweet 16 today
She's lookin' like her mama a little more every day
One part woman the other part girl
To perfume and make up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world
But I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
You know how much I love you daddy
But if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the check this time

Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin'
And butterfly kisses at night

All the precious time
Like the wind the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly
She'll change her name today
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away
Standing in the bride room just staring at her
She asked me what I'm thinkin'
And I said I'm not sure
I just feel like I'm loosin' my baby girl
And she leaned over

Gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
Walk me down the isle daddy
It's just about time
Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?
Daddy's don't cry
Oh with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every mornin'
And butterfly kisses

I couldn't ask God for more than this is what love is
I know I've got to let her go but I'll always remember
Every hug in the mornin' and butterfly kisses..

Friday, August 1, 2014

The Goddess..

Living in a society where the Budget set aside for building a statue of peace is 200 crore and the budget for Making public transport Safer for Women is only 50crore.. and we talk about Women Empowerment..

"I am Durga, I am Kaali, and I am also the one who is raped, abducted and abused by men who live freely,
I am Radha, I am Paarvati and I am also the girl child who is aborted by Mummy who doesn't WANT me,
I am Saraswati, I am Lakshmi, and I am also the Girl who isn't getting married 'cause Papa doesn't have money,
I am Sita, I am Janiki, and I am also the Wife who bears the pain in silence when my 'He' whom I consider My Parmeshwar batters me..
I have been taught that I am no less, that I am not weak but everyday I am told not to speak,
I have wings, I believe that I can fly, it's people around that don't want me to give it a try..
So here I am sitting silently, suffering gracefully so that nobody can see what I am hiding behind these big eyes..

posted from Bloggeroid

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Good or bad.. he is a part of all that he has met..

I literally grew up with this, and it's not something new to me. I have seen them fight with each other and For each other.. but it's the former that scares a kid I know. I talked about this quite many times to alot of people, although in all those numerous discussions I never disclosed the identity of 'those two' but yes I have talked about it. What I have concluded is that it's a very general phenomena and me worrying about it or getting scared because of it is something as silly as "worry about what might happen if a plane falls on my rooftop!", (well somebody actually did use this example, creative people you see!).
So the point is how wise or how foolish it is for a kid to be scared to get into any serious relationship because he/she is afraid of spoiling that relationship because one day even he/she will fight with that someone special because that kid is afraid that one day he will hurt that someone special with his harsh words or insensitive actions, because he is scared to face the reality that Every Couple Does Fight.. because he doesn't want to believe that even the most perfect of the perfect couples do have differences.. because even after so many years that kid can't digest the fact that even his idol couple fights.. and fights pretty often.
Stupid as it does sound but this is as real as you and me. The kid is afraid to get married (no he isn't committment phobic!), it's just that this kid has seen his Best Couple fight and argue about the menial things, about things that he thought doesn't even exist. This kid literally grew up idolising them and by the time he got little brain he realized the truth. He has seen the best relationships going sour, he has seen the cutest couple drifting apart, he has witnessed the agony, he has seen the hatred, it was all enough to leave him with a life long phobia.
The kid is now all grown up, loves to be loved, enjoys that someone special's company, like to imagine and fantisize about a perfect life, but he carries those dark secrets in his heart.. The only difference is now he doesn't cry infront of others and calls himself a Strong Guy.. afterall the kid is now a grownup but the truths and secrets still haunts him because his perfect couple still fights..

posted from Bloggeroid

Friday, July 18, 2014

Achcha lagta hai..

Uski yaado me khoye rehna achcha lagta hai,
Khud apni hi dhun me rehna ab achcha lagta hai,
Pehle dhoondte the humsafar iss raah e zindgi me, ab tanha hi chale jana achcha lagta hai,
Sitaare gardish me hai apne ab hi par subh o shaam uski khwahish karna achcha lagta hai,
Sau jhooto se bada jhoota hai ye dil par iss ke waadon pe yakeen karna achcha lagta hai,
Uski aankho se dekhe hai jo maine khwaab un khwaabo ko apna kehna achcha lagta hai,
Shiddat e gham aur lachaari hai beshumaar par apni hi mausqi me rehna achcha lagta hai,
Daanista-naadanista uski baato uske hi khayaalo me chaaro peher bitaana achcha lagta hai,
Waabasta hai wo mujhse aur mai usse har tarah ye soch ke achcha lagta hai,
Jo ki aagaaz yu hai to anjaam kya kahiye par din raat uski yaad me yun jalna achcha lagta hai,
Wo mere hai aur mera hi rahega iss baat ko aksar dohrate rehna achcha lagta hai..

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Wo kehti hai suno jaana..

Wo kehti hai suno jaana,
Mohabbat moum ka ghar hai,
Taapish-e-bud-gumani ki,
Kahin pighla na de is ko?


Main kehta hun,
Jis dil me zara bhi bad-gumani ho,
Wahan kuch aur ho to ho,
Mohabbat ho nhi sakti.

Wo kehti hai sada aise hi,
Kya tum mujh ko chahoge?
Ki main isme kamin bilkul,
Gawara kar nahin sakti.

Main kehta hun,
Mohabbat kya hai ye tumne sikhaya hai,
Mujhe tum se mohabbat ke siwa,
Kuch bhi nhi aata.

Wo kehti hai,
Judai se bahot dharta hai mera dil,
Ki khud ko tum se hat kar dekhna,
Mumkin nhi hai ab.

Main kehta hun,
Yahi khadse bahot mujhko mujh ko satate hain,
Magar sach me mohabbat mein,
Judai sath chalti hai.

Wo kehti hai,
Batao kya mere bina jee sakoge tum?
Meri baatein, meri yadein, meri aankhen,
Bhula doge?

Main kehta hun,
Kabhi aise baat par socha nahin maine,
Agar ek pal ko bhi soch lun to,
Saansen rukhne lagti hai.

Wo kehti hai tumhen mujhse,
Mohabbat is qadar kyun hai?
Ki main ek aam si ladki,
Tumhe kyun khaas lagti hun?

Main kehta hun,
Kabhi khud ko meri aankhon se tum dekho,
Meri deewangi kyon hai,
Ye khud hi jaan jaogi.

Wo kehti hai,
Mujhse waraftgi se dekhte kyun ho?
Ki main khud ko bahot hi keemti mehsoos karti hun.

Main kehta hun,
Mata-e-jaan bahot anmol hoti hai,
Tumhe jab dekhta hun,
Zindgi mehsos karta hun.

Wo kehti hai,
Mujhe alfaz ke jugnon nhi milte,
Ki tumhen bata sakon,
Ki dil main mere kitni mohabbat hai.

Main kehta hun,
Mohabbat to nigahon se jhalakti hai,
Tumhari khamoshi mujh se,
Tumhari baat karti hai.

Wo kehti hai,
Batao na kiss ko khone se dharte ho?
Batao kaun hai wo jise,
Ye mausam bulate hain?

Main kehta hun,
Yeh meri shayari hai aaina dil ka,
Zara dekho batao kya,
Tumhe isme najar aaya?

Wo kehti hai,
Bahot baatein banate ho,
Magar sach hai ye baatein,
Bahot hi shaad rakhti hai.


Main kehta hun,
Yeh sab baatein ye fasane ek bahana hain,
Ki pal kuch zindgani ki,
Tumhare sath kat jaye.


Phir us ke baad khamoshi ka,
Dilkash raqs hota hai,
Nigahen bolti hain aur,
Lub khamosh rehte hain…

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Sunday, July 13, 2014

Life for Rent..

italicEveryday I sit here and watch the day pass me by, everyday I let a piece of me die, Die comfortably, die silently.. No complains.. No hatred.. perhaps because I am too numb to feel anything anymore.. perhaps because there is so much else to cry for.. This is my life I am pretty sure, but I aint living it anymore.. I am just being an audience, watching The Players play their part.. I feel as if I have given it for rent, it's mine but I got no control over it..
I know not what I am waiting for, everytime I cross a day on my calender I ask myself sarcastically "How many more?", I know not.. Is something coming my way? (Not that lucky), is there a chance of being happy? (Not in my stars)
what is it then I am waiting for.. what is that I can't searching for.. This quest, this hunger is increasing by leaps and bounds.. everyday.. every minute.. every moment..

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"Me"

I am Not me anymore.. I am what I thought I was Not Am I a reflection of what He wanted to see.. Am I what She thought I would be.. Am I...