Wednesday, August 21, 2013

All you will never know.. .. 'Cause I'll Never tell!

Yes I cry alone at night but in the morning I am a cruel bitch who wouldn't give a sh*t, I feel nervous when I talk but you wouldn't be able to guess it in next light year 'cause I wouldn't let it show! Yes, sometimes I want to push everybody away and live all alone, you'll never be able to guess it anyway because I wouldn't show, I wouldn't tell.. Yes I miss that someone who didn't care (atleast I think so..) Yes I need to be taken care of and need to feel loved too, you'll never know, nor will I tell. I like to be called 'Little Miss sunshine', 'Miss All Smiles' because it tells me that I have been so good at hiding the pain inside me. Yes, I fight and tell you that I don't care, not because I don't but because I want to see if you would believe. Yes I paint a black picture of myself infront of people because its so easy to get attracted to a 'Goody' person. You might think you know me all, but let me remind you, "You might try and even think you've won but you can Never catch the wind.."

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

'In sooth I know not..'

There are some moments when you feel low, and there are some moments when you feel so low that you get pretty confused because you don't actually know the real cause.. You didn't fight, you didn't have a bad day at work, nobody said anything to you, neither did you do the same.. But still.. you feel as if your heart is filled with enormous unknown gloom and that is the moment when I remember the famous line by Shakespeare in Merchant of Venice, 'In Sooth I know not Why I am so sad, it wearies me, you say it wearies you, but wherefrom I came by it I am to learn.'


I am Not me anymore.. I am what I thought I was Not Am I a reflection of what He wanted to see.. Am I what She thought I would be.. Am I...