Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Time is running out..


There are some moments that teach you the value of Life, like the day you escaped a terrible accident or perhaps when you had a nightmare about somebody’s death, etc but there are some moments that teach you or rather make you realize how worth less this life is. You attend somebody’s funeral, you hear about somebody’s death, you at that point of time realize that how ignorant we are about the fact that this life is surely just like a figment of imagination. ‘Life is nothing but a dream’, it is indeed I say. What else would call it? Now picture this.. all your life you run after something or the other, education, career, money, reputation, family, friends, and endless other things but one fine day or rather ill fated day You Die, without any warning, without even the slightest notion you leave everything behind, everything that you gave your life for. You will talked about and how unfortunate it was will be discussed in detail and then people who just knew you will forget you in two or three days, your friends will forget about it in say a week or two, your family will take a little longer but will eventually forget too, because they all have to carry on with their life. And then you Mr/Ms Nobody will be remembered on special occasions. All this while what happens to you? You are dead and gone, cold, no longer strong.. perhaps wishing to get One more chance.. perhaps wishing you had done something worthwhile, so that you could at least face your Creator in a better manner.
               This life is nothing but a dream, a 3D or perhaps a 6D!! when it will be over we can never tell, those who are wise enough to realize it don’t just Spend it like that, while others just sit worry about petty things.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

There comes a time..


There comes a time in your life when you realize that people with whom you are no longer in contact were actually one of the most wonderful people in your life,
there comes a time when you realize that money, job, respect, etc are not related to the happiness in one’s life,
you realize that you miss some people more than you thought you would,
you realize waking up in the morning and going back to sleep doesn’t Complete a day,
you think about giving up materialistic things more than often,
you no longer enjoy things that once ‘made your day’,
you miss Yourself and being You,
you find more happiness in giving unlike before when you enjoyed Receiving presents!
You are constantly running but getting up nowhere and even if you are getting somewhere you are not satisfied,
You no longer find ‘flings’ and ‘hook ups’ Cool and you think about settling down,
You find solace in simple things and find few so called Important things are actually useless and absurd..
And when you realize all this you Actually realize that you have realized too much!!!! Gosh… I need a break..

There comes a time..


There comes a time in your life when you realize that people with whom you are no longer in contact were actually one of the most wonderful people in your life,
there comes a time when you realize that money, job, respect, etc are not related to the happiness in one’s life,
you realize that you miss some people more than you thought you would,
you realize waking up in the morning and going back to sleep doesn’t Complete a day,
you think about giving up materialistic things more than often,
you no longer enjoy things that once ‘made your day’,
you miss Yourself and being You,
you find more happiness in giving unlike before when you enjoyed Receiving presents!
You are constantly running but getting up nowhere and even if you are getting somewhere you are not satisfied,
You no longer find ‘flings’ and ‘hook ups’ Cool and you think about settling down,
You find solace in simple things and find few so called Important things are actually useless and absurd..
And when you realize all this you Actually realize that you have realized too much!!!! Gosh… I need a break..

'There's No point in keeping your heart as hard as iron, for you never know someone might attract you like a magnet!!'

So.. you had your heart all broken and bruised and you decide not to give it away next time. You lock your heart in box and throw away the key, quite literally!! You change your radio station every time it plays some old romantic song that reminds you of your.. .. Umm Heart?! You become careless or atleast start pretending to be one, you make fun of people who are in love, start talking crap about sh*t called Love! BUT BUT BUT..!!!! One fine day.. or call it Ill-fated day as you wish!! Somebody starts taking all the wrong turns, doing all the things that irritate you the make you smile and then finally.... .. make you want to find that lost key, yeahhh that key damned key!
      And then you increase the volume when the radio plays some romantic number, you start relating to something, something unexplainable, when you see other people in love, you start justifying love, you now longer want to talk crap about love! You start doing things that were Not At All in you To-Do-List! You feel like doing good things, you once again want to start All-over again, you can hear a voice deep in your heart that asks you, rather pleads you to give it 'One More Time Baby!!'

Up and down, down and down.. Roller-coaster ride anyone.. ?


Its a tiresome roller-coaster ride, a ride that I am no longer in mood to continue, but somehow just like in the rides the operator never stops even if we are screaming on top of our voices similarly here my Operator isn’t in a mood to stop the ride either! The ride takes you so high that you can feel the clouds beneath your feet and just in a moment you come down crashing and feel as if you are falling flat on the ground. Everyday you tell your heart that its going to be little better atleast better than what you had today but by the end of the day you realize that it’s all the same, infact little worse.
You have no option, you have no choice, your hope is your biggest support and a reason to hang on little longer… But how long? How long can you bluff with your heart and pretend to be something that you are NOT. How long.. .. ..

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Feeling low... but why..?

Who am I.. Another brick in the wall.. Another face in the crowd.. Another name in the list.. No, I cant be like this.. This monotony is killing me from inside, I feel so hollow, so empty.. They say whenever you feel low you should count your blessings, I tried doing that too.. I have more money than before, I have more friends, I am with my family, I am employed, I am healthy, I am Alive(Atleast in literal ways!) but then what is it that is missing.. What is that missing piece of this nasty puzzle that I haven't been able to figure out of late..
I am trying my level's best to calm down, May Almighty help me.. ... .. .. ..

"Me"

I am Not me anymore.. I am what I thought I was Not Am I a reflection of what He wanted to see.. Am I what She thought I would be.. Am I...